you take hearts and leave them behind
you think the girl isn't what you want
is just a figment of the past
you need to find something
that is better
something to kiss you,
to satisfy your needs
I didn't do that
so you got pissed
and you got bored
I take him as a lesson
to learn about
shyness and boys
I am so meek
but so is he
But I'm a freak
and he is not
I'm just a young teen
seeking an interesting boy
and confusing feelings
to go with it all
people sometimes want what's wrong
I hope I'm not one of them
because this feels so right
It's fear
that keeps me pulling away
and trying not to love you
It's fear that makes me pull away
right before a kiss
fears make me run away when
I begin to be serious
fear is what makes
my world go round
please understand
don't be worried
love me as I am
while I sit back
and watch
my fear fade away
as we fall in love
and trust
like no one else can
fear makes me world go round
so love me as I am
and my fear will slowly
dissipate
into oblivion
while I trust and believe in you
as you are
what makes me live
calm my stormy soul
for I don't feel strong
enough to hold on tonight
take me under your wing
and show me the light
that comforts me
in times of distress
heal my wounded heart
from the terrors
of the world
show me strength
because I feel like letting go
tonight
help me find who I am
meant to be
and accept those
who do not accept it
sometimes I don't get you
but do I really want to?
why do I make myself sick
when I begin to love you?
why can't we all love without hurting?
why did he have to do
what you don't?
Are you hurting
because I hit too close
to home?
and showed off
your bad tendencies
to those needed to see them?
Do you feel stripped?
does your nakedness
annoy you?
when you are hiding
under your clothes
the deep, dark secrets
that keep you
with duel identities
within one man?
are you cleansed?
are you exorcised?
your revelation has come to be
but you still make me nervous
you can say it to my face
or call me and say it
you can send via email
or old-school mail too
I'd like to know
did I act up too much
for you to say a word?
was I too socially awkward?
a "nerd" or "dork"?
did I offend you in any way?
or were you just too shy?
were you worried I was like
the other girls
who chase and chase relentlessly?
or do you just never talk to girls?
cuz I'm not crazy
you know you don't
have to be rude
Have I been blinded all this time
of every wrong thing about you?
was I really too blind to notice?
and thought you could do no wrong?
I noticed all your good
but have I been a fool
all this time?
please tell me what's
she is a master
of manipulation
she has no idea
what she did to me
we hit it off
but what she
lead him to do
just tore me up inside
she lead him to
betray everyone
including me
got me broken up
more than I already was
when he and I were overwith
we met and you knew
who I was
and I knew who you were
I played stupid
"oh nice to meet you"
"oh really, is that right about him?"
"yes, your baby does look like him"
I saw the pictures before
nothing she told me
I didn't already know
she was already so stuck on me
followed me everywhere
tried to tell me
she loved you
and the kids
But I knew better
because I heard it all
before we met
you don't kn
Sun shines in your eyes
a glint of green today
for the stupid is hidden
but stupid should hurt
really smart
or really lying
your lack of common sense
got you where you are today
not alot you can do now
I feel so sorry for you
If you stayed with me
through thick and thin
you'd be free
and happier
But she drove you
into the ground
now you're screwed
you should have said no
to all the girls
that caused you your dignity
oh, the love I had for you
it wasn't seen clearly enough
so it went ignored
I should've said something
but didn't want
to remind you for the others
you said "love" is tossed
around loosely
so I couldn't express
my feeling